Failed Attempts Meant I'M a Success

I feel out of place…out of place I dream of floating in space… Away from the darkness below I hide my eyes from the undertow We couldn’t see cuz we were out of our mind We shouldn’t be left behind while we’re blind I made failed attempts and it’s tempting to say I’ve lost it all, But I’m a success and hell yes, I don’t give if we all fall… I ran away from your misunderstood embrace I can’t believe I fell in love with sorrow and disgrace I’m very impressed with the fact that I’m so damn depressed, Yet feel so high as a kid’s kite in the air of despair A despair not enough expressed (so vast) Like my failed attempts (in the sad past) Of loving you too fast…(oh, way too fast…) My failed attempts meant I’m a success And yes, I won away your happiness And you gained back my sadness We couldn’t see cuz we were out of our mind We shouldn’t be left behind while we’re blind I made failed attempts and it’s tempting to say I’ve lost it all, But I’m a success and hell yes, I don’t give if we all fall… I ran away from your misunderstood embrace I can’t believe I fell in love with sorrow and disgrace I’m very impressed with the fact that I’m so damn depressed, Yet feel so high as a kid’s kite in the air of despair A despair not enough expressed (so vast) Like my failed attempts (in the sad past) Of loving you too fast…(oh, way too fast…) My failed attempts meant I’m a success And yes, I won away your happiness And you gained back my sadness The undertow of failure that makes me feel low Fearless as a fiery lion in the sunshine aglow Crazy inside…kinda cozy and cuddling with myself tonight Seeking a stride in my heart’s pounding with so much might We couldn’t see cuz we were out of our mind We shouldn’t be left behind while we’re blind I made failed attempts and it’s tempting to say I’ve lost it all, But I’m a success and hell yes, I don’t give if we all fall… I ran away from your misunderstood embrace I can’t believe I fell in love with sorrow and disgrace I’m very impressed with the fact that I’m so damn depressed, Yet feel so high as a kid’s kite in the air of despair A despair not enough expressed (so vast) Like my failed attempts (in the sad past) Of loving you too fast…(oh, way too fast…) My failed attempts meant I’m a success And yes, I won away your happiness And you gained back my sadness We couldn’t see cuz we were out of our mind We shouldn’t be left behind while we’re blind I made failed attempts and it’s tempting to say I’ve lost it all, But I’m a success and hell yes, I don’t give if we all fall… I ran away from your misunderstood embrace I can’t believe I fell in love with sorrow and disgrace I’m very impressed with the fact that I’m so damn depressed, Yet feel so high as a kid’s kite in the air of despair A despair not enough expressed (so vast) Like my failed attempts (in the sad past) Of loving you too fast…(oh, way too fast…) My failed attempts meant I’m a success And yes, I won away your happiness And you gained back my sadness We fall away, fall away together… We grow tall like an eagle’s feather We will be better in due time…due time… We are sick of being bittersweet like lime We couldn’t see cuz we were out of our mind We shouldn’t be left behind while we’re blind I made failed attempts and it’s tempting to say I’ve lost it all, But I’m a success and hell yes, I don’t give if we all fall… I ran away from your misunderstood embrace I can’t believe I fell in love with sorrow and disgrace I’m very impressed with the fact that I’m so damn depressed, Yet feel so high as a kid’s kite in the air of despair A despair not enough expressed (so vast) Like my failed attempts (in the sad past) Of loving you too fast…(oh, way too fast…) My failed attempts meant I’m a success And yes, I won away your happiness And you gained back my sadness My many fears won’t make me die in doubt’s breaking boat Hope will eventually undo this wretched rope from my throat Afraid of letting go, but I’m more afraid of courage that fails me I just want happiness…I don’t mind the hurt you made me to be We couldn’t see cuz we were out of our mind We shouldn’t be left behind while we’re blind I made failed attempts and it’s tempting to say I’ve lost it all, But I’m a success and hell yes, I don’t give if we all fall… I ran away from your misunderstood embrace I can’t believe I fell in love with sorrow and disgrace I’m very impressed with the fact that I’m so damn depressed, Yet feel so high as a kid’s kite in the air of despair A despair not enough expressed (so vast) Like my failed attempts (in the sad past) Of loving you too fast…(oh, way too fast…) My failed attempts meant I’m a success And yes, I won away your happiness And you gained back my sadness Push me in front of the line of lovingkindness Laughing in lament deep down inside…more or less… Nonsensical memories flood me and I change my mind like the weather But, things will get better in due time…I’m sorry I’m a failure successfully — you’re living in error while I’m feeling ever so freer