Fading Colors

It's hard not to look back at the things that happened in my past, but it's the past, they passed on, kept runnin' now they're gone and I seem to forget that. I try too hard to keep my head low, my skin out of this blazing sun, but no matter how hard I try, not a day goes by I don't wanna get up and run. So I sit still as the time stops and the world around me begins to fade in, a black darkness where I don't want anything but for this world around me to end, but it keeps on going, and keeps on slowing, 'till I'm to slow to defend. All these kicks, from left and right, 'till I'm on the ground cause of my opponent And I'm dazing, my mind erasing, any counter attack and I give up, I understand that he's got me beat, but I can't seem to get out of this slump. In my mind, I feel untied, I feel crossed, and I feel denied. And from somewhere inside, I feel the ignition spark, and I ignite. I have the immense weight of the world, that you dropped on my cold shoulders, I rather be six feet deep under the ground, I don't want a tombstone, give me a boulder, It's like every day in this ice cold world, I feel like it's only getting colder, carrying this weight on my back, as the fiery depths of Hell smoulder. But everyday I, feel like I'm a little bit closer to breaking out of this shell, I write a little bit more, 'till I develop carpel tunnel syndrome then I exhale. My colors are fading, but black and white are all I need to sit still. So I'll keep writing, and keep on fighting, as long as I can keep this skill.