Face First

My Life seems so hard so to hurt less i put up a guard that way nothing can hurt me wearing a fake smile so the truth no one may see the more i try to get on my feet the more people lie and show nothing but deceit in the past i have been so gullable and naive who do i trust, why believe hurt so much, talked down to so much insult and no one can understand why from this life and world i want to bolt like lighting this pain comes unexpectedley and strikes me asking god why is this the way my life must be struggling to push forward not motivation many days hoping from this painful life there will be a seperation with nothing to live for this pain killed my soul down to the core