Eye Opener

Loneliness abounds. Harsh realities hitting my conscious efforts. Not realizing the errors of my ways till thrown in my face. Stinging, burning, feeling like frozen pellets from the heavy black clouds above. I felt backed up against a wall, yet abandoned and deserted. No other options were open. No other choices available for scrutiny. Having to make quick snap decisions not worrying about anyone but me. Pain being caused by me unknowingly. Voids needed to be filled. An emptiness compressing my everyday actions. I reached out and someone reached back. I had questions that needed to be answered and they were. Someone stepped up. My selfishiness was being satisfied. I can't go back and fix things. Can't make you see my understanding, the bright white light bulb flickering on over my head. The pain being felt by me now is equal to all you felt for months. My heart hurts. My head spins with worries over losing you, too many mistakes caused you too much pain. Trying to hash out words to sooth this pain. Trying to show and prove to you just how deep my love truly is. Time heals all wounds. Time can fix what can be fixed. Please allow time to fix this. My understanding now totally open and realizations hitting too hard, My heart now weeps. No tears available from my eyes. Only want peace...with you. To feel love returned, with no doubts, no worries, no drama. Fill me, make this go away. Allow me to fill you and love you. Allow us to have what is ours and ours alone. Each other.