Explanation To My Heart

I look at myself and cry, because I have hurt my special heart .  The pain is tearing me apart.  But I can hold the love in heart.  I hate being this far away.  I feel like I can't express the things I need to say.  People say things that aren't true.  So no matter what I'm sticking with you.  Whether you like it or not I'll always be here,  to wipe away every single tear.  Whenever you need me, you know where I'll be.  I'm always in some crazy memory.  Your pictures are up in my mind. I kept them all.  You really don't know what you mean to me,  but hopefully this explanation will make you see.  I could never stay mad at you.  You're special in everything you do.  You've taught me a lot of lessons,  and I'm thankful for all of your blessings. It's just that I try to be happy,  but the more I try the more everyone hates me.  It's like the harder I work, the more they take,  the more I heal, the more they break.  The happier I get, the more miserable they are.  Sometimes I get so close but feel so far.  All I'm asking is please don't hurt me.  I'm hurting where only I can see.  I wish I could tell you all the things I want to say.  I wish you were here with me everyday.  I know some things I did to you were cruel.  Believe me when I say I was a fool.  So please just give me another try.