Experience

One spark and down we fall Into the memory of dark despair One word, and there is all The helplessness of all we dare Can I lie To shield myself from pain Can I try To drown memory's stain In tears, in lies, in grief In all the sameness of the human cry? Oh, how am I to purge my mind Back to the bliss of neverness? How am I to tell a lie Until I can't remember this? Can I even try to deny myself experience? Rain beats down against the window-pane As my soul cries tears at memory's sweet stain Existence is all that I know Oh who am I to stem the flow Of grief, the inner tide that yet defies the lie of innocence But what is bliss? 'Tis innocence To never know Oh never let me know myself for what I am All Truth revealed could never dam The tide of yearning, not for who I am, but who I was before I knew what it could be to know Would that my soul could flow back into what it was!