Evolve

I struggle to stay out it for more than a few hours I'm done ignoring the ravenous thorns gnawing at my skins Layer by layer I'm stripped until the sweet is rendered sour And in my stupor I always let myself get drowned again It taints the pool of relationships that I used to enjoy And chases my mind wherever it is stationed at the time No matter the task or distraction I'm fighting to employ I end a hardened convict bluntly repeating the same crime It's part of human nature or it's a virulent disease Regardless of the reason the action never gets excused With elation just beyond the door however I may please Whether I'm an animal or ill the chance will be abused For discipline in my life and a stronger need in my soul I'll excersize for the thousandth time to move past this challenge Although I have a fickle heart and my word is far from gold I'll fail everything if I never evolve past what I am