Everyday Thoughts

Am I a good friend? Why can't I Be? Except When I try They ignore me It's all I can feel Loneliness I've asked before "Do you hate me?" And they still give me Bitter lies Am I a good friend? What did I do wrong? Why can't I trust your answers? Why won't you talk to me? I'm alone in this empty world I thought I was good enough for them Maybe they will stop ignoring me when they see I've Disappeared Vanish from mind's eyes Would they show emotion? Would they even glimpse at my shadow? These were my thoughts Before I made my choice What happened to me? I broke gods grip upon me A life with no judgement No sickness No disappointment Why can't everyone do this? Escape the devils playground Where he whispers in your ear Makes you angry Brings you to your inner being But here, I can be alone. In this corner of space Beautiful Vast Endless joy I thought I was suppose to make everyone see me In a new vision Of my past They never game me a chance That's how cruel they Can be They saw me as an ignorant fool They embarrassed me Bullied me But now I can laugh at them As I see them below me