Escape It All

why do i feel my life is going nowhere slipping through my hands my dreams are going i feel so old in my mind and i yearn to be free at the crossroads in my life but not a midlife crisis where do i go up and leave and run away but will not my demons follow it is only my motivation that holds me back am i so scared of failure that i cant even try does the wild turkey make me a tad too honest escape is what i desire escape from this mundane existence i have lived a life relied on other people's generosity never have i really had to fend for myself goddamn it i just need some advice is my time now