Erase

I know everywhere I've been And I far from want to be back there again I have no idea where I'm going So much for being, over my life, all knowing I have o more seeds that needs sewing All I've ever really wanted to do was to settle down my heart Now I'm finding myself trying so hard to make another start And I can't look at things around me the same I love many, but have only known to have been in love once, close to me I will carry his memory and name Life's wild constant of some sick and difficult game And no one is to blame The love I hold for him was never love that was vain The miles between him and I are long And together is where we belong The cities that separate us are, to me now, a temporary glimpse of fate Which now causes my heart, mind, and soul, for him, to wait Sometimes love realizes some things way to late Everyday he's on my lonely mind I lie awake in the dead of each night thinking of him all the time I wonder if he is somewhere thinking of me He floods my ever-waking moments, and he is right by my side in all my dreams When all is said and done I will still forever believe that for me, he is the only one It never gets any easier, always it's harder as I go Feel like I'm standing on the edge up so high, as I look down at everything below And all things happen for a reason, yes I know But what reason do I possibly have for holding on for so long and so tight All I know for certain is it don't feel wrong at all, this feels so very right Maybe from that edge I should let go and spread my wings to take flight Just disappear without a single trace Easier said than done so for now I'm stuck in this place Time going by so fast, yet life happening in the moment seems to pass daily at such a damn slow pace And he ever coming back to my arms is against the odds, I understand very much but is hard for me to face But I keep hanging on because our moments together and those that should now be, time can and will never be able to erase