Enough

I just want to be enough. I try my best, but everything seems so tough. The harder I try, the higher the standards are raised. I want my hard work to be acknowledged and praised. I don't want to be a screw up and disappointment. My life should be fun and full of enjoyment. This is too much stress and pressure. I'm only thirteen, I should be carefree and having an adventure. I'm drained physically, mentally, and emotionally. It seems like everyone is depending on me. I try my best to make everyone proud. The voices in my head, telling me to do better are so loud. Im drained and tired like the wings of a bird. Everyone not being satisfied is just absurd. These expectations make me feel like a mouse in a trap. Every time I'm told I could do better, in my face I feel a slap. These expectations make me feel broken like a shattered dream No one's ever thought about what I want, so it seems. I just wanna have fun and take a break. My future is something I don't yet want to face. I'm living in the present now, so why dwell about my future? For now my life should be filled with happiness and humor. I try so hard, but I sometimes wanna give up. I'm only human, but yet I wanna be enough.