Enigmatic: Pt 1

Letting go my ego Finding my peaceful I once was A beautiful frame of mind All the time Did not try Simply was Thought-blooming with colored petals of sentience It was so easy Until I became fiend Learned greed Subconsciously Confused love with sex and suffering Gave and gave Until nothing was left to give Became nothing myself Trying to revive someone else Lost my own life Still I look back to the boy I lost And love him more than I did back then His fails, his tries All of his innocence How could he ever know What was in store for him A little down the road?