Empty Nester

I never thought that I would be a mom, you were an unexpected surprise. I fell in love with you instantly my child, My nurturing womb was your first home. You alone were my absolute everything, I enjoyed watching you grow up. But the years seemed to go by super-fast, and I am extremely sad you have gone away. I love your dad, but I miss you so very much, he gets on my nerves and makes me so mad. Your father is loving and so supportive and all but nothing seems to work, I think I need help. Maybe I need to go see a psychiatrist. Without you my darling I don't seem to exist. I stay in my bedroom for hours at a time. I used to be active in the house and chores, but my to-do list is blank, nothing is on it. Things around the house are in disarray. I prepared you very well to go off to college, But I didn’t prepare myself for when you did. Your dad tries to cheer me up constantly, but his efforts are useless and I am in a dark pit. I have an appointment to see a shrink next week, Maybe then I'll find ways to cope without you. I heard about empty nesters, but I never thought in my wildest dreams that would be me.