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Emotional Prisoner

Emotional prisoner Here I sit, in my self imposed solitary confinement, punishing myself for nothing at all Reality is just a touch away but no one is here. Trusting only myself is lonely but, it is comfortable there is no one to judge me, no one to ridicule me no one to disappoint me no one to know me no one to care about me no one to love me there is just no one... wait a minute! I don't need anyone remember! I'm happy with myself, right? Right?... Not feeling anything is good Isn't it! Isn't it? Feeling nothing means I can't be hurt, so then, that means... I am invincible! See not feeling anything is good right? Wait a minute! I just had a thought! A sad thought... what is this? Liquid sadness escaping from the cracks of the closed windows to my soul Oh, that's weird, it kind of feels good! I felt bad for a moment and now I feel good! Maybe this feeling of emotion is not so bad after all!!! Maybe I can go outside and feel something!! Go ahead! You can do it! Be emotional... well, that was an interesting exercise in futility. What a waste of my time! So then... what was I doing Oh yeah, nothing at all! Well... That's important right? I'm happy with myself right? I'm comfortable here in my self imposed solitary confinement, right? but I wonder... why does no one know I'm here? What if there is someone out there looking for me? Now what? John Derek Hamilton May31,2016

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John Hamilton

Date: 6/7/2016 6:05:00 PM

Glad I m out of my emotional prison ..very well said.. From my laptop.. selley dr.T.O

John Hamilton
Date: 6/8/2016 9:16:00 AM

Hi mom, thanks for your visit hope all is well. Enjoy the laptop, greetings to all! Love you!

Eileen Manassian

Date: 6/1/2016 6:23:00 AM

I loved this write....from the start to the finish. That....what if.....the reason you need to get out of your solitary confinement. Thanks for your visit to my soft spot poem. I left you a comment....hugs

John Hamilton
Date: 6/1/2016 8:50:00 AM

Thanks Eileen for your visit and comments, very much appreciated.

Laura Leiser

Date: 6/1/2016 1:16:00 AM

What an interesting poem in the exploration of emotions and self evaluation, John. I really liked this!

John Hamilton
Date: 6/1/2016 8:46:00 AM

Thanks Laura, too many people don't open up to others, afraid to be hurt, but in the end, they end up alone, so sad. Thanks for your visit and comment, very much appreciated.

Timothy Hicks

Date: 5/31/2016 10:53:00 AM

You expressed the sense of turmoil very well in this dramatic monologue ... feels like a great poem to be read aloud, if done well, since it has an almost conversational tone about it, with the anger and self-doubt. There is a time and place for solitude and reflection ... but being social creatures, it's damaging if prolonged.

John Hamilton
Date: 5/31/2016 11:08:00 AM

That is a very insightful comment, very brave first comment also! Yeah, you got the vibe I was throwin out there, thanks for visit and comment, much appreciated.