Emotional Bandaid

Look at what you do How effortlessly you bring me to tears With nothing more than a memory How quickly the slightest reminder of you Melts my happiness down to nothing I get so confused about you Because you were the best and worst impact on my life What should I think of you? I loved you so much And I remember how often you saved my life But now you're ruining it Even though you never wanted to hurt me I was so naive To think that you would always be there Because you are human I never thought of you that way You were perfect The reason why this life seemed worthwhile Humans are not perfect They are ugly, selfish, and uncaring You were none of these things The day it hit me That you were one of them It felt as if my heart was ripped out The door protecting the fantasy world you took me to broke off the hinges The perfect universe in my head is no more I live in shock of what reality really is Ironically, you sheltered me from reality Because I thought a being like you could not possibly be real You could fix anything How I miss you, my emotional bandaid I still, even now, cling to everything that is you Because it gives me some hope Cutting the wires that connect me to you Is the same as suicide But without you, my wounds don't close They infect and become the everlasting sting of living All these other temporary bandages are no good But now, even if I had you back It would always be different Because not even you can close the wound you caused