Ecliptic Silence

Hopeful but its so mundane Filling the hollowness with more empty pleasure But it takes my hand and and walks me through this withering decay Into the ecliptic silence, Self medicated diluted dreams A mixture of over stimulation and desensitizing me Somewhere between ominous and beautiful Letting the darkness consume my conscious brain Until the sun can realign and pulls me back into this day To overcome this strange numbness Of self inflicted shadowing Butterflies once warmed me up inside until I pulled off all their wings Holding memories I cant forget while praying to a God who has forgot But we are only allowed to keep the things that we have already lost Sometimes living is not enough without sovereignty As these flightless insects crawl back inside Then perhaps through their death life would be more satisfied Finger deep I draw a line then stand to face a blackened sky I reevaluate Your presence now without You Lord then where am I Because this is me You were my light, subsequently my faith has died Somewhere below the surface of this shifting unstable world of mine