Dying Alone

I recently stated I don’t want to find love, Some offer tips others sympathy. But I have good reason for my choice, And what I need is understanding and empathy. I don’t want to bring someone into a life of despair, Knowing I cant hold on forever. I cant bare to cause anymore pain, For if I cant love myself how can I love another. I have always wanted to become a mother, Now I know I never can be one day. For how fair is it to bring them into a life, A life of watching their mother decay. I could not put that on someone else, There are already too many people I have hurt. I could not bring them into this cruel world, For its in the shadows where the evil lurks. So I have made up my mind, I will die alone. Nobody around, To hear me gasp and moan.