Dreary, Weary Me

It was such an uneventful day today Tonight, I want to prove otherwise To my Father above, but maybe someday It's a windy night in the desert...walking tonight would be rather unwise… It was such an unremarkable day Tonight, I need to pray away the pain That's been kept concealed in my heart of stone...I, alone, can't stand this dreariness - no way! It's a windy night in the desert…I'm wishing for rain instead not to go down the drain It's such a mundane time for me inside my cranium It's a mind-numbing numbness I can't quite fathom Stimulate me with your serenity and everything in between I'm as dry and worn-out as dust on your clothing, left unseen Banal words and worthlessness irks me at times like these… I'm bothered to the extreme, so I want to let go of my worries In the brisk desert breeze To set you and I at ease I've become wearisome and alone lately… Frankly blind as well as smiling miserably Please save me from my lonesome state of mind Please give me back meaning in life, so I can find…so I can find... Solace for my fragile feet to run to, Happiness for my fingers to brew, Progress to make and to freely undo, And Peace for my hyperactive mind of rue God will give it to me in due time, in due time His kindness is as ripe as fresh fruit in its prime But, this ugly sorrow is like grime upon my soul You're still beautiful today and tomorrow as a whole I'm sorry that I wasn't productive in this short life I'm wanting freedom and liberty away from strife I spent my time on my pleasures and foolish leisure Instead, I should have looked up to You and be mature I'm just a tedious, hideous and preposterous beast before the dawn; dusk is gone, Left on my own in this castle, filled with coldhearted lies in which I feast upon I made a good impression on the Lord this afternoon, doing nothing but troublesome ways... I gave up trying to do what is right in the past like a buffoon, doing ridiculous tricks for silly praise I am not a circus buffoon for all to simply laugh at I am not a beast that is neglected and alone I am not a foolish man or a reckless and dirty rat I am just a boy who wasted time on his phone..