Dream

As I wipe my teary eyes from Letting you between my thighs No prize just a feeling for the moment. A squirrel tryna get a nut, but I am dumb cuz I knew what was up. Tried to believe a false sense of the start of something new but who knew you would do me the way you do. Now I'm trapped up inside of myself secret burning like the brightest flame. It ain't no game, I still gave you me. My core of warmth wasn't so you could get a feel and then act like you can't deal leaving me to feel it was all a lie. Guess I'm blind cause I tried to make you remember the feeling you gave me and the feeling I returned but instead you dismissed me and ignored me. Call me dummy. In my head I thought it was a connection but to you just an injection believed it was affection but no it was inception. just a dream that never really existed a painting not finished... Tarnish left on me because I took you whole at the cost of my soul. I do need therapy because somewhere in me secretly I wanted u to need me...to crave me...want me ... Feel me... Taste me... But instead I need you...crave you...want you...feel you...taste you but what's the point if it's not mutual... This unrequited feeling of dealing with you in such intimacy. I guess my mind does play tricks on me because evidently we never had ecstacy just a fantasy. now its over just a distant painful memory to know it never happened you and me was never