Down This Twilight Avenue

I've walked along this old, beaten path, corroded and worn, surrounded by deepening twilight for ever so long; I came to the fork in the road and this is what I chose, this lane of love and longing, the course of chasing that caress. All I've ever dreamt of is a love's sweet union, someone with whom to share the overwhelming experience that is this life; transcendence. Trying to find it, I made my choice – my path layed out before me, my life a vigilant search; I never imagined I'd regret picking this way, never envisioned its true difficulties. I saw not these complications before me, thought not of what could befall me on this road. I walked, oblivious, towards what seemed right, to what the heart wanted to allow. My heart lit the stars above me, guiding me along the path of its desire; in this manner was I led, in this manner did I find the most joyous thing I ever have known. My time with the queen of my life was more precious to me than an eternity in heaven; for her my heart still burns. But when she took her leave of me, fled from my side, not with a yell, indeed but a whisper; something inside was taken. I began to turn around, from this course to which I had my being devoted; but when the first step I tried to take, I found my heart shackled. The lingering specter of my temptress willed me to stay; I looked at her ephemeral form, so inviting, and still I struggle to refuse her. To this day, I strive to take every arduous step away from what once was; I strain against the iron knots inside – just to get that one step farther, back to whence I came. I continue looking for that one that I've always sought; but also fighting to go back, to find my own happiness alone, for once. I travel through this land of rain and mist, seeking my fortune and fate; searching with just one eye while peering behind the other into the past.