Down the Rabbit Hole

Sometimes I feel like Alice, I’m falling down a rabbit hole, Spinning and spinning However, Unlike her, I don’t come out into wonderland, I just fall into nothing I just feel nothing And it’s scary, It really is Sometimes I’m just afraid of myself Of how I act, How I see, How I feel It’s like I don’t truly know who I am And I don’t know how to feel It’s like I’m an empty hole Trying to fill it with whatever Whatever makes me happy, Whatever makes me sane, Whatever makes me feel something, Anything It’s like I’m desperate to not feel numb Like I’m desperate to not be a robot, Doing the same thing, Everyday, With no thought, No feeling, Nothing Just numbness Am I really this broken?