Dont Kid Yourself Sarah

Help me I beg to you As I strangle in this endless night Where I suffer from this curse Where are the lands in which I swim for comfort Let me sail away You will never you entrap me Make me a stranger in my own home I want you out I gnaw at my chains slowly each day Gaining more and more life of my own And ***** Even people at work notice that I have been dying Take your things to the curb I promise you one day I will smile down upon you from my window as you turn the keys in your car And leave me forever You are no light of mine And when I build my self once again you will no longer be welcome I hate that you hit me And control every aspect of my life I have hated it for the past seven years and every month I have said this To myself Yet every month I remain here I finally stand to tell you this but you shut me down yet again Maybe one day I will be able to fully stand I think But you are angry at me So maybe Maybe in the next life time When I rebuild what you’ve broken And the last thing you say to me before I leave this world Is what you’ve always said “Don’t kid yourself Sarah” And you are right I have been long destroyed there is No rebuilding for me If I am lucky there is no next lifetime