Do You Know What Its Like

Do you know what it’s like to grow up too fast, To have all these feelings because of your past? I was so innocent, was so young then all of a sudden I feel that my childhood is done. I thought I could trust him but guess I thought wrong Ever since that day my innocence was gone. I was too young and we use to have fun. Ever since that day I don't want to be bothered with anyone. I said I was going to try and keep my innocence till I finished college Because I wanted to have all my knowledge. On this day I was speechless and ludicrous. I feel that this is all my fault. I know that this was all my fault. I feel remorse that this happened. I feel dumb for not telling anyone that it happened, They wouldn't understand my pain and how I feel. Till this day I have all this guilt. I wish you could see all the hurt and pain I’m holding on to. I’ve always wanted to hide because of you. I’m emotionally drained and going insane. AIn’t nothing in my life the same. Numbing the pain is the only way i feel better,