Disturbed

I try to expunge this feeling, to be free and liberated, but it keeps coming. I try not to cry any more; to turn a blind eye to keep mute and be quiet forever, but it is difficult. I want to be deaf, to be unconscious;to be lifeless, so as to be free, yet I fear. I made a new year resolution, trying very hard to keep to it, but, I can`t! For I`m intoxicated with this feeling, yet,I fear. I am not alone many are like me How they cope,I don`t know; yet,I fear. But,We are humans, created in God`s image better than the beast, but are we...? placating injustice as good, yet,I cry. Wanton destruction of life and property, Violent killings;insecurity everywhere, evil at its peak;unwarranted pain, yet,I cry. Horrible site on the pages of newspaper, Gory scenes on TV;abomination beams from the radio;obscenity reigns, yet,I cry. I fear that our world has turned into a city full of canker worms devouring our flesh and intestine;can we survive this? I fear to go to bed without dinner or food; to sleep alone in my room;for my love traveled away; I don`t joke with my belly;I have phobia for staying alone in enclosed places...can I survive this tonight?Hmm... This I fear..