Distant Ships

‘I can’t explain, you would not understand,’ I've lost my life and all I have is pain. An addict, I've the answer in my hand. I lose, 'I got that feeling once again!' My love for Charlie was a bit of fun Still I am lost, cocaine is who I am. I need a fix, so I can feel at one, The self abuse, my life is just a sham. The nights, red lights, the shame to feed my need, Now past, an addict still, I am just clean. All seems so jaded now, like distant ships, My life is mine, there is no in between. A promise to myself, of this I'm sure, Say no to coke, drugs are never a cure.