Dissociation
I want to live life
But I'm tired of living my life
I want to be free
But I'm chained to the idea of what it means to be free
I want to be whole
But threw away pieces that would make me whole
When I look in the mirror
I don't want to see my face in the mirror
I want to be loved
But can't figure out how to be loved
I spend too much time in my head
And miss life happening all around my head
I'm so lonely
I try so hard to hide that I'm lonely
I want to have friends
But I try too hard and can't have friends
Over a decade in pain
Has me wondering if I'll always live in pain
I over stress, and overthink
Because I overcompensate and overthink
So maybe dissociation is a way to escape who I am
So people who like who I am
I just want validation that I should exist
Before I cease to exist
Just once I want to feel like I'm good enough
Before I've finally had enough
I want to live life
Scared I might one day take my life
Copyright © Christopher Goss | Year Posted 2022
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