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Dismayed

What was going through your head When you decided to end your life Did you consider your love ones at all Leaving behind your sons and wife Failing to show up for work on Monday Not calling or coming home that night Leaving your family frantic and scared So cruel of you to leave them in this plight You were reported missing to the police Your car found on Tuesday near Niagara Falls Witnesses seen you jump in the icy waters Just thinking about it.....my skin crawls Three weeks later, your body still not found Your wife is still struggling to stay strong Posting pictures of you in happier times Sorrow you left behind will be lifelong Now your boys will grow up fatherless Never understanding the reason why Damage done to them emotionally Tears of confusion and anguish as they cry A small community remains shell shocked The awfulness of it all is so hard to digest The reasons why we'll never truly know May your tormented soul now be at rest 12/ 09/ 2013 *A sad and true story, his children are in my son's school.

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Jack Horne

Date: 3/11/2014 3:48:00 PM

very well written but sad piece, my friend, and awful that it's a true story

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 2/25/2014 8:57:00 AM

I was hoping you finished the two you started. Let me know when they are posted. Have a great day.

Donna Jones

Date: 2/18/2014 10:21:00 PM

Very well written Cecilia....sounds as if it affected the whole community your son included....wow...this is a horrible thing to have to wonder the rest of their lives....too bad....God bless and keep them...thanks for sharing as prayers can go up for them...

Robert Pettit

Date: 2/18/2014 7:13:00 PM

Suicide is not the right way to leave this world. You have described everything very well with some good rhyming.

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 2/18/2014 4:02:00 PM

Hi, Cecilia, it's always so good to know you are here at Soup. STay a while and post some new poems for us.

Anne-Lise Andresen

Date: 2/18/2014 1:03:00 PM

I lie, if I say I remember this poem Cecilia. . . read many, many poems after this .... a sad story .... from our "cruel" world - No new poems in the new year?? - Take the pen in your hand :)))) - Thanks for the nice visit to "my Emma" which is also from the "real world" - Hope all is well with you - Have a enjoyable day. - oxox // Anne-Lise :)

Tim Ryerson

Date: 2/18/2014 4:45:00 AM

Oh me oh my Cecilia, so sad and so shocking but expressed so well here by you...Yes, suicide is the ultimate act of selfishness yet I can identify. An age old saying...'There but by the grace of God go I'...

Chuck Melugin

Date: 2/11/2014 11:30:00 AM

Dismayed is an excellent work, taking cause and effect to the ultimate. You are a great writer, my best, chuck

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 1/13/2014 1:46:00 PM

Hi Cecilia, long time no see. I hope all is well with you. I am looking forward to reading more of your poems in the new year. Hugs Rick

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 1/13/2014 2:12:00 PM

Yes I have been great, started a new job, finally got my book published and am getting ready for a small winter get away. All in all life at the moment is pretty good.

Cecilia Macfarlane
Date: 1/13/2014 1:59:00 PM

Hey Rick, yes been awhile since I been on here, not much time to write or read poems lately : ( ....started two and never finished them, hopefully I will get back here more often. I have been well, thanks, how about you?

James Kelley

Date: 12/27/2013 9:45:00 PM

this is heart wrenching...well done.

Ken Carroll

Date: 12/27/2013 9:40:00 PM

Hi Cecelia, A truly poignant write.. Ken

Poet Destroyer A

Date: 12/24/2013 1:38:00 AM

Cecilia,, Guess what? , The end of the year is approaching :) and there's no way I'm letting this year end, without dropping by with SMILES and CHRISTMAS CHEERS. Thank You for making this a great year for ALL OF US. --- May magic fill your days and all your dreams come true this holiday season. MERRY CHRISTAMS <3 Love Linda -The Sweetest Poet Destroyer

Anne-Lise Andresen

Date: 12/23/2013 5:43:00 AM

- Thank you for sharing this poem with me - very well written,Cecilia ! - Wishing you a peaceful and happy Christmas - Many good wishes for the year 2014! - oxox // Anne-Lise :)

David Williams

Date: 12/17/2013 8:57:00 AM

Hey sis, this is a heartbreaking write and unfortunately it happened to a very good friend of mine as well, he left a son and daughter and wife, is it selfish? have a Happy and Peaceful Christmas…David

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 12/16/2013 3:28:00 PM

wow, you really put it strongly and I wish these kinds of people could find a better way, and yet I think they have to be extremely depressed to get to this point. So was this based on a very recent event? SO sad!!

Cecilia Macfarlane
Date: 12/16/2013 7:46:00 PM

Yes, just a month ago now. I was at the falls two days after he jumped celebrating my birthday on the Wed., Nov. 20 and did not find out until I returned the next day, glad I didn't find out until I got back. My heart goes out to his loved ones.

Honestly J.T.

Date: 12/16/2013 1:57:00 PM

Over and over we are reminded of how fragile life is when someone dies. Especially, when it is someone close to us.

Eileen Manassian

Date: 12/10/2013 10:22:00 AM

Oh dear. Oh dear. How much should I say or reveal? Depression does take away the ability for a person to be thinking clearly. I know it doesn't make sense to those around, but for the person there.....in that dark tunnel...unable to cope. Sometimes it seems the only "logical" thing to do. You think...family will be better off without me. I'm only a burden. I do the wrong things. I say the wrong things. I'm more harm than good. God knows the heart. He is merciful. Powerful sad write, my dear.

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/10/2013 10:26:00 AM

That could never be true Eileen. You are loved!

Poet Tacito

Date: 12/10/2013 8:47:00 AM

A deeply heartbreaking read...I'll never quite understand it myself. It just such a selfish thing...especially when you have family close to you. Strong writing.

Cecilia Macfarlane
Date: 12/10/2013 9:42:00 AM

Thanks Drake....the why of it all baffles the brain. He had a loving family, good job and a nice house. Depression won I guess : (

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 12/10/2013 7:27:00 AM

This is eerie, many years ago when I lived in Ontario one of my clients had a receptionist who stripped naked and jumped from the top of Niagra falls. We were all shocked. She was such a nice girl and she had seemed so happy. We never know what people are going through. Well written poem Cecilia.

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/10/2013 10:25:00 AM

I had no choice, my Dad liked to move around. He had a restless spirit.

Cecilia Macfarlane
Date: 12/10/2013 9:38:00 AM

Wow! You certainly get around, lol. Nice though : )

Richard Lamoureux
Date: 12/10/2013 8:10:00 AM

Kitchener,Waterloo, Kirkland Lake, Virginiatown, Matheson, Lamable, Bancroft, Parry Sound, Northbay and Thunder Bay. Waterloo was the last place.

Cecilia Macfarlane
Date: 12/10/2013 7:54:00 AM

Thanks Rick, it was a difficult one to write. Until a body is recovered the family is in limbo, on the flip side what if it was he that tipped the police and he skipped the country to start a new life, one never knows. What area did you live in in Ontario? Hugs