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What was going through your head
When you decided to end your life
Did you consider your love ones at all 
Leaving behind your sons and wife

Failing to show up for work on Monday
Not calling or coming home that night
Leaving your family frantic and scared
So cruel of you to leave them in this plight

You were reported missing to the police
Your car found on Tuesday near Niagara Falls
Witnesses seen you jump in the icy waters
Just thinking about skin crawls
Three weeks later, your body still not found
Your wife is still struggling to stay strong
Posting pictures of you in happier times
Sorrow you left behind will be lifelong
Now your boys will grow up fatherless
Never understanding the reason why
Damage done to them emotionally
Tears of confusion and anguish as they cry

A small community remains shell shocked 
The awfulness of it all is so hard to digest
The reasons why we'll never truly know
May your tormented soul now be at rest

12/ 09/ 2013
*A sad and true story, his children are in my son's school.

Copyright © Cecilia Macfarlane

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  1. Date: 3/11/2014 3:48:00 PM
    very well written but sad piece, my friend, and awful that it's a true story

  1. Date: 2/25/2014 8:57:00 AM
    I was hoping you finished the two you started. Let me know when they are posted. Have a great day.

  1. Date: 2/18/2014 10:21:00 PM
    Very well written Cecilia....sounds as if it affected the whole community your son is a horrible thing to have to wonder the rest of their lives....too bad....God bless and keep them...thanks for sharing as prayers can go up for them...

  1. Date: 2/18/2014 7:13:00 PM
    Suicide is not the right way to leave this world. You have described everything very well with some good rhyming.

  1. Date: 2/18/2014 4:07:00 PM
    An excellent poem you have created here, Cecilia. with words so sad. Such a wonderful life, how could anyone even think of suicide. Loved thee read, my friend....Peter

  1. Date: 2/18/2014 4:02:00 PM
    Hi, Cecilia, it's always so good to know you are here at Soup. STay a while and post some new poems for us.

  1. Date: 2/18/2014 1:03:00 PM
    I lie, if I say I remember this poem Cecilia. . . read many, many poems after this .... a sad story .... from our "cruel" world - No new poems in the new year?? - Take the pen in your hand :)))) - Thanks for the nice visit to "my Emma" which is also from the "real world" - Hope all is well with you - Have a enjoyable day. - oxox // Anne-Lise :)

  1. Date: 2/18/2014 4:45:00 AM
    Oh me oh my Cecilia, so sad and so shocking but expressed so well here by you...Yes, suicide is the ultimate act of selfishness yet I can identify. An age old saying...'There but by the grace of God go I'...

  1. Date: 2/11/2014 11:30:00 AM
    Dismayed is an excellent work, taking cause and effect to the ultimate. You are a great writer, my best, chuck

  1. Date: 1/13/2014 1:46:00 PM
    Hi Cecilia, long time no see. I hope all is well with you. I am looking forward to reading more of your poems in the new year. Hugs Rick

    Lamoureux Avatar Richard Lamoureux
    Date: 1/13/2014 2:12:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    Yes I have been great, started a new job, finally got my book published and am getting ready for a small winter get away. All in all life at the moment is pretty good.
    Macfarlane Avatar Cecilia Macfarlane
    Date: 1/13/2014 1:59:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    Hey Rick, yes been awhile since I been on here, not much time to write or read poems lately : ( ....started two and never finished them, hopefully I will get back here more often. I have been well, thanks, how about you?
  1. Date: 12/27/2013 10:37:00 PM
    During my life I have known far too many tortured souls who have taken their own lives and we will never fully know what was in their minds to move them to do so. I however believe that the pain that they heap upon others by their actions surpass that that lead them to do so. Good write on a sorrowful subject.

  1. Date: 12/27/2013 9:45:00 PM
    this is heart wrenching...well done.

  1. Date: 12/27/2013 9:40:00 PM
    Hi Cecelia, A truly poignant write.. Ken

  1. Date: 12/24/2013 1:38:00 AM
    Cecilia,, Guess what? , The end of the year is approaching :) and there's no way I'm letting this year end, without dropping by with SMILES and CHRISTMAS CHEERS. Thank You for making this a great year for ALL OF US. --- May magic fill your days and all your dreams come true this holiday season. MERRY CHRISTAMS <3 Love Linda -The Sweetest Poet Destroyer

  1. Date: 12/23/2013 5:43:00 AM
    - Thank you for sharing this poem with me - very well written,Cecilia ! - Wishing you a peaceful and happy Christmas - Many good wishes for the year 2014! - oxox // Anne-Lise :)

  1. Date: 12/17/2013 8:57:00 AM
    Hey sis, this is a heartbreaking write and unfortunately it happened to a very good friend of mine as well, he left a son and daughter and wife, is it selfish? have a Happy and Peaceful Christmas…David

  1. Date: 12/16/2013 3:28:00 PM
    wow, you really put it strongly and I wish these kinds of people could find a better way, and yet I think they have to be extremely depressed to get to this point. So was this based on a very recent event? SO sad!!

    Macfarlane Avatar Cecilia Macfarlane
    Date: 12/16/2013 7:46:00 PM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    Yes, just a month ago now. I was at the falls two days after he jumped celebrating my birthday on the Wed., Nov. 20 and did not find out until I returned the next day, glad I didn't find out until I got back. My heart goes out to his loved ones.
  1. Date: 12/16/2013 1:57:00 PM
    Over and over we are reminded of how fragile life is when someone dies. Especially, when it is someone close to us.

  1. Date: 12/10/2013 10:22:00 AM
    Oh dear. Oh dear. How much should I say or reveal? Depression does take away the ability for a person to be thinking clearly. I know it doesn't make sense to those around, but for the person that dark tunnel...unable to cope. Sometimes it seems the only "logical" thing to do. You will be better off without me. I'm only a burden. I do the wrong things. I say the wrong things. I'm more harm than good. God knows the heart. He is merciful. Powerful sad write, my dear.

    Lamoureux Avatar Richard Lamoureux
    Date: 12/10/2013 10:26:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    That could never be true Eileen. You are loved!
  1. Date: 12/10/2013 8:47:00 AM
    A deeply heartbreaking read...I'll never quite understand it myself. It just such a selfish thing...especially when you have family close to you. Strong writing.

    Macfarlane Avatar Cecilia Macfarlane
    Date: 12/10/2013 9:42:00 AM Block poet from commenting on your poetry

    Thanks Drake....the why of it all baffles the brain. He had a loving family, good job and a nice house. Depression won I guess : (