Disappearing

From the time i could understand words People have told me how i got everything easy But the demons in my mind have come in herds And the thought in my head can be pretty breezy They say things like how im smart and well mannered They say that things are supposed to work out for me They act like i set some sort of high standard Of which im suppoesed to be the epitome But i think all this is unfair and not true Because even if all the things they say appear to be right Then how come i dont feel it on the inside too My tunnel is dark and at the end there is no light Its like im drowning and my lungs are filling with water But i dont die instead into the deep depths i sink In my head there is a never ending slaughter And it's of all the happy thoughts that i think Gone like wind into the air i breathe so fast It is the waste of time i have that i fear They ask me to look for the clues of why in my past But it's even in their minds that i disappear