Disappear

DISAPPEAR Tremors are the worst, the full-body shakes its like my skin is too tight, my body doesn’t fit, my life doesn’t fit the anxiety no one understands its invisible, I’m invisible. “Snap out of it, Shaky”, they say “You’re just faking it.” And I want to crawl into a ball and disappear. Where did my confidence go? My libido? So many accomplishments… I wake up to a new day but I see the old ways and no way out. Can’t write in longhand anymore, scrawling script is illegible words fall like a sideways rain splash all over me the fears…not good enough just let me lie here in the dark and disappear.