Did You Ask?

This morning when I woke up and opened my eyes I realized this loneliness didn’t come by accident or surprise. Maybe I’m meant to be alone all my life One thing I know, I can’t win this fight. I’m beginning to feel numb to the pain Just look at my wrists this isn’t a game. Maybe if you’d asked, even if I looked fine, Who’s lucky number again is number nine? It’s not so lucky as long as I’m here The pain, the sorrow, the hurting, the fear. I don’t know how to say my final goodbye Just that I love you, please don’t cry. I know you never wanted me, I know it’s true From all the bitter words and I don’t love you’s. I’m sorry I hurt you, I truly am But I hurt myself even more by being who I am.