Dichotomy

Life so often seems to be a bit of a dichotomy And if you will observe with me I 'm almost certain you'll agree. Such opposites stand side by side can make for an intense life ride. Sometimes one wants to cry O me! Get me out of this dichotomy. I'm succeeding and failing. I'm joyous yet sad. Will someone please explain to me The reason for this dichotomy? I often pray,God give me grace to find a less tumultuous space. But then I find a kind of glee on this intense road of dichotomy. I have faith in Jesus yet doubt fights me too. Can feel so imprisoned but in many ways freed. There again that thing dichotomy. I'm intelligent and feel so ignorant too. My path can look plain,still what do I do? Another example- Now can you see how I'm caught in this dichotomy? Now I'm not alone of this I am sure these opposites we all endure. Guess we must be accepting of what must be. And what must be? DICHOTOMY.