Despondance

Here without you I feel so numb Left out in the cold To walk alone The broken seams of reality Would you miss me if I were gone Or was I never good enough Mmm I’ll take the shame Drown me in all your pain Blame it all on me I’m just your pins and needles Being used and abused And then thrown away and it's all my fault Nothing was ever good enough Good enough I'm not good enough I was never good enough The death of you leaves me breathless If it were only real But I'm just stumbling around this dream of reality Waiting for the rain Hoping for the rain To wash away the pain Erase away the shame But it'll never be good enough Just blame it all on me I’m only your pins and needles Being used and abused Surrounded by your cancer of lies Drenched in silence never-ending And it's all my fault Nothing is ever good enough Good enough I'm not good enough I was never good enough Weighted so deeply with pain I’m so sorry.... I disappointed you Alone and cold I sing my lamentations Where in the shadows I’m safe I'm free...still I take the pain I wanted to save you from the dark But I cannot stay where I don't belong Still you blame it all on me I’m just your pins and needles To be used and and abused And then washed away Left alone...empty and forgotten And it's all my fault Nothing is ever good enough Good enough I'm not good enough I was never good enough Never good enough