Desperation For Respiration

No words, no expression just pure devastation Here I am stuck sitting at square one Thinking back, only because small conversation Thinking I was problematic constantly reminding me how her needs weren't met emotionally I was...Emotionally intertwined with someones emotions for their convenience Living trying to please you, the romance and love dance we do only mistaken for pure happiness The sacrifice that we made so we both can experience everlasting bliss The physical is the great song we sing wanting no more than stimulation but still in need and confused with deep conversation The problem is the emotional, why can't I get these flaws out my mind I'm venting to you but their no help only resulting in calling me mistaken and inconsiderately out of line The style, culture of this love/hate is turning this once beautiful mural into individual tile This thing we call love, is the unimaginable ghost, no one has seen but continue to search for like a blind man before the invention of brail Our relationship is a game of pretending so no one outside can tell Leading to failure, we hide important feelings because we can't verbally speak on due to our maturity Surrounded by people in love only wants me to be alike but leaves me in a frown Closing my eyes I see this women being my everything, possibly the love that will last for more than 16 rounds Tears arrive in my eyes because days/weeks have passed and yet we still don't speak Only wanted to work through things and speak on our problems so we can eventually leap Leap into that love we once dreamed and Envisioned for us Starting a new thing, Rebuilding a foundation starting at trust Believing it's gonna happen is a lie itself, why continue to go down a unhappy trail I ask myself Instead of sitting around and being blue, I can finally go outside and breath Inhale, exhale, inhale and finally exhale