Depressed

I’m sitting here with a smile on my face I’m trying real hard to find my place. You look at me and know something’s wrong I’m trying to hum a pleasant song. The tears are welling up in my eyes The sadness is darkening the once cloudless skies. I don’t want to face the music so strong For this has been my behavior for so long. I walk around in a depressive state I’m waiting anxiously for my horrible fate. I’m waiting for that glimpse of hope But I don’t see it, so I try to cope. I’m waiting on you Lord to end this useless life There is no point or reason for me to fight. I don’t have hope or joy right now Please, O Lord, by You I want to be found.