Departure

influenced by living , time and sometimes encouraged by others i have decided to leave this land one day , and be closer to my mother. time has trampeled my life , my dreams are all shattered. no children , no future and no wife... having nobody to hold , nothing to show. there's nothing i control , in which i can change to make my life better. having friends is wonderful , although i always feel estrang- ed. my life so boring , drab , having no fizz. ~revised~ life is precious and not a thing is worth causing anyone to leave it . so no matter how bad it gets , even unshared love. nothing on this earth ..not anger , not pain... no matter how lost or sad... .....shall force my early departure