Demented Soul

Dementia has taken hold of my mind. There is nothing, my reasoning controls. Sorry for my demeanor. I don't mean to hurt anyone. Its paralysis of my thinking mind. Please forgive my deeds. They are insane and unkind. I did not know that my subconscious mind, Can take control. I hardly remember any event in my life. There are some, that I recognise. Just the deeply etched impressions. Most of the time, I am not me. I became somebody, I do not know. I cannot even wish, that my will to live, will end. My reasoning is demented. I wish that they are not so unkind. My loved ones suffer the ignominy. If I had my senses intact. I would have rewritten history. It’s a shame that in this 21st century. There are no solutions for this bane. Euthanasia is not prescribed by law, Nor can I self destruct. There is no justice from above or below. Just feel I am suspended in time. I cannot imagine what I can’t. I cannot express what I want. No guilt no shame, what wrong have I done, To exist in this parallel universe.