Deception

I know this poison seeping in me The one that hits all men some day I recognize the game I play daily With your scent of flowers in May This love that permeates my mind and heart The effect your eyes and smile bring I’ve known all along we’ll be apart But I still to myself think this thing You still are who you will always be I’m still not someone you’d be in love with Some part of me refuses to see That these dreams are just a myth You’re just a girl who doesn’t want me A special friend I’m glad to know If only that other part of me didn’t bleed And pulse this sickly glow I no longer think of us in the future I know you don’t want more You’ll never change your playful nature You’ll never open this door Maybe you don’t know what you want I’m scared of where it’ll take you Maybe you’ll change your mind next month I hope by then I won’t want you I don’t think I can be what you want You’ll never admit this creed I think you’ll say the words I can’t Goodbye, you’re not what I need