Decembers Despair

Up at midnight tired weary Dreams of those once love so dearly Faded, distant not seen clearly Gone so far but seeming an illusion Close enough to breed confusion This pain in my chest Gives my heart contusions Lost in thought, engaged in guessing Overcome but not expressing Sorrow, blackness, so depressing With not a word my soul cried out A heart rending mournful warrior shout Echoing forever, and written about All my soul within me burning Retro grade like night day turning Hungering, lusting, seeking, yearning No more laughter just white hot embers Of a life that hurts to remember I didn’t think I’d survive December... Earnestly I sought through my sorrow For my God, now my own, not borrowed I would fight today, just to fight tomorrow Feeling empty cold and hollow Anger, vengeance, pride all swallowed Humbled low before the Lord I follow It’s a bitter battle on this Rocky Bluff Winters edge so cold and rough This broken life I’ve had enough Now in my chambers above my door Is the raven of nevermore Born from night and forgotten lore The journey hellish dark and deep To the grave where the dead must sleep Deeper than secrets I keep I must pray for a blessing To be granted reprieve from stressing On my knees altar bound confessing Lord receive me from this bitter war Upon the stairway to heaven’s door Where I will be free to fight no more Surround and fill my soul with blinding light Command the demons within to flight Take my wrongs and make them right Lord hear my prayer I pray tonight Amen