Death Is Happiness

Just go ahead and laugh as I cry my last words. Love gone wrong is my explanation. Exploiting my generosity as I cringe from the hell, That is my life. We lie in my bed just remanicing. I look to the sky to save me. Go ahead girl just fall asleep, as I sit here and cry. It isn't the first time as I find this my way of living. Go ahead girl, just grab that gun and aim it at my heart. Because if this is love than kill me now. It's so nice, living in a world where no one else can feel the pain that breaks my heart every day, I'm not okay. So go ahead girl just stab that dagger in my back. KILL ME!!! It's what you do. These thoughts of suicide run through me every night. To smile would be a fantasy in my mind, but there is nothing to bring it. So do me a favor, when I die just put that smile on my face, because it will be the only time when I'm happy.....