Dear Dad

Frequently i ask myself about my ifs...ands...buts...what ifs & maybes but the fear i once had about those questions is slowly but surly fading. Ready set go this is a race i am determined to win & at the end i just need man and Kayla, my kids, to be my best friends. They are my gifts that were given to me. For every min, every hour, every day i am free rim truly blessed that i made it & lived through one of god's greatest test. I may have passed barely but "damn" it i made it. You may be dreaded with shame, disappointment or rage. The fact remains your still mad about things i cant change. To soften my heart and turn my bitter sweet I'll be the first to place my pride beneath my feet. I'll try to be more submissive & let my aggression fall back. I'm still gonna be me ain't no doubt or wavering that. I tried it all my way lets see if i can mix the two i want my happiness to come but it wont be true without you. I've tried many times to show how i felt by my actions but you highly missed my message. So i will try my words cause these are one of my many passions. This is my first & very last plea. After this ....i will no longer be concerned about you but more focused on me!