Dear Anxiety

Dear Anxiety, You lurked your way back into my life. Causing me to fumble back into my old fears. I spent sleepless nights after I felt your presence. You broke me down in the utter darkness where no one else heard. I felt hopeless under your name-calling, as you brought fear into my eyes. I let you control my life, as if I were a puppet under your strings. How I wish you never appeared again, how I wish you didn’t know my name. You come uninvited into my life, causing more pain than ever. The dreams I kept so near to me were crushed under your wrath. The purpose I longed to live for seems impossible now. You took the beauty from my life and made me feel hopeless. I feel, as I was nothing more than a burden, flowing through each moment of life. And just when I think it’s time to get help, you make it harder with constant reminders of my failures. I lie awake in my bed, gasping for breath and you accompany me with nightmares. The lingering voices echo through my mind thoughts like” I’m not good enough”. The thoughts scattered around my mind, leave their imprint on my life. You took me as your slave, beating me down with the power of your words. The scenarios inside my mind are more real than my reality. I feel tremble beneath your presence. You bring to life my inner demons and they are driven by your insanity. You mock my vulnerability and hide it behind a smiling face. And just when I think it's safe to go out, you appear again waiting to do what you do best. Just as a thief comes to steal, you come to steal my confidence.   Sincerely, Ancy, a College Girl