Dead Man Walking

I am still alive but am not living, My life is gone am just existing, Am still in shock am barely breathing, Waking up from this dream is all that am wishing, But this is the reality there is no escaping, The chains, the bars, am slowly rotting. I was not a good person that I know, My life was a circus and I had the show, I was high never wanted to be low, The pride I had could never let me grow, I preyed on weaknesses just like a crow, Now am beaten all I have is tears as they flow. So my last words are to you my pearl, I know it’s too late to say what I feel, Just know that my love for you was real, I wrecked you, gave you wounds that could never heal, Then you were happy, it was him that I had to kill. I remember the man I killed, your boyfriend Lance, Everything was so fast like an accident in a race, I thought you were fooling around looking for romance, But you real loved him that’s hard to reminisce, I know you hate me, I can feel that in a distance, I wish I could see you but I don’t stand a chance. My life on death row has not been so good, For 15 years I have been eating the same food, Living alone in a cell I don’t even know my mood, My senses are dull I can’t tell plastic from wood, Am gonna be executed tomorrow yes! Yes they should, I wish I could change things..!!! I wish I could. Am gonna die alone my grave with no name, My whole life has been meaningless and lame, I was allowed visitation but no one ever came, I’ll be erased from existence like a burnt out flame, Nothing new ever happens every day is just the same, So am just here waiting for the walk of shame. Am a dead man walking living my last hours, I wish I could see you before facing my fears, To know how you look like, it has been 15 years, I imagine you with a family happy in many colors, And you have forgotten me, though that brings tears, The imagination brings hope as my mind wonders. All I real need is your forgiveness, Am sorry for bringing such darkness, Am sorry for I was so heartless, Am not fit to be human I was so reckless, In another life I will give you the happiness, I will make you smile for you will be my princess..