Daily Thoughts

Everyone thinks they can relate to me but nobody really understands, they lie just so you feels as if your not the only one with problems. the only people that feel as if you do are the ones that have experienced what you have. have you ever felt suicide flowing through your veins? or the sickness thats in your blood it just drips out of your scars and spreads to your fellow friends. have you ever had a kiss of venom from someone you cant have? or the touch of someone who wants you so much that they have killed your heart all together. not understanding yourself so you go to your friends to council you, then you just close your eyes and forget all your feelings? did you ever hold your tears in so hard that your eyes start to burn? or make out as if your smiles are pretend? it is easier than answering everyones questions over and over. what about when you see your desire and your hands start to tremble and tears fall like nothing before? you try to imagine what life is like but when you start it kills you instantly. your hell is my heaven but im just an illusion of your god and a prediction of the devil. have you looked so hard that the star has burnt a symbol in you? no one cares about your life just whats in it. the talk can lead your head to desicions you dont want to make. but like you make your own thoughts and everyone disagrees anyway. if i could stop everyone for just a second or a half i would hate it to tell the truth but for me to stop my own life would be a pleasure. they say listen to your heart but for me its too late, because my heart has already stopped.