Current Feelings

Most days I'm a crumbling mess like an avalanche out of the blue I can't help but fall apart when I remember you It only takes a second- then my heart hardens like asphalt on a cold day I've endured enough heartache for the rest of my life and that is the somber truth There are times when words aren't enough my mind races with a million thoughts at once you used to hear my thoughts and guide me prepare me for real life and now I'm nearing 30, life is creeping up, and I've no guidance or that shoulder to lean on This hollow feeling, will it ever subside? I feel like I'm losing myself - nowhere to confide I'm swallowed up from life, falling in a black hole