Cry of Loneliness

It’s early in the morning And thoughts spin in my head With memories of a time when I thought you were my friend I loved you Jim so dearly Did everything I could To make your life worth something Just like I thought I should You told me at the end there That loving me was hard That you found it such an effort That I only was your tart It’s almost five years followed on And still I’m on my own Maybe there’s something in that Maybe I’ll die alone I’ve met some men of this world They treat me like you did They think I’m only good for sex Don’t bother knowing me And all the time this heart of mine Dies with so many tears Cries with a wanting to be loved Just like once I loved you You had your fun with females You had your fun with fire You had your fun with beating me Then told them I’m a liar I want so much to move on here And many times I’ve tried But in the end it all comes back When life was by your side There part of me that carries on That’s looking for a mate But if they try get much to close I then show them the gate And still I cry in loneliness For love that should be mine But I just can not find it My life I feel is stone I wish sometimes I didn’t care I wish for my release I wish this stupid heart of mine Would finally find some peace Oh but for just one man in life To love me like I you My soul could then reach heaven And my heart would rest as two