Crush

You love me, You hate me, your love destroys me my love for you kills me I wish my heart would stop my feelings to go numb cutting helps my brain stop my thoughts betray me All i think of is you my heart kips beats when i see you my face heats up when you smile when i'm down all i need is a smile when it only comes from you when you sing to me i love you more i hate myself for how i feel do i love you or do i love the thought of loving you? my heart betrays me my brain does too i know i love you my heart slowly breaks when i think about you i'm not sure if i can have you i know you got hurt so did i but i find comfort in that gorgeous smile i miss you i lied i cry myself to sleep sometimes i tell you i'm just tired when i'm so depressed my emotions make me tired i'm so exhausted but when i think of you my energy returns when i think of you i think you will ask if i want to go out with you i wish i was the love of your life i want to hug you i want to kiss you i want you to hold me never let me go i want to dance with you till my legs give out my heart beats hard i can feel it in my chest no matter how much it hurts i still love you i hurt i cry i die a little on the inside my heart breaks slowly at the thought of you being alone i'll wait till i feel comfortable to tell you how i feel my head hurts i giggle i smile you'r the only one i act like this around i smile so much my face starts to hurt my eyes change colors because of how i feel i get butterflies i shake no matter how much you smile your eyes are so deep and can see straight through me i have my heart on my shoulder and i want to show you my love my deep feelings i imagine holding you cuddling you sleeping in your arms i imagine my life with you spending it all with you having kids growing old always loving you even if we get in a fight we will always work it through my heart is forever yours my crush my love my everything