Convalescent

Not a recent occurrence yet i'm recently forcing myself to it “Keep moving forward” I say pushing myself through it Pondering at the thought that one day my troubles will all disappear For my longing for happiness has left me in despair Lord free me from these deadly thoughts Heal me, take away my inner pain Lord help me find the peace that I sought out for Get these negative things out of my brain Stuck in my mind unable to differentiate thoughts from reality Darkness swarms while i try to save my mentality Pull me out of this hole..I beg yearning yet patient I try Thinking of solutions,but my mind remains vacant Waiting for the day the happiness in me becomes present Hoping for the day that I am convalescent.