Confusion

He kissed me and he held me and I was just really confused. I lied to him and said I love you He looked in my eyes and said I love you too What do I do? What did I just do? I am so confused emotions running through my head thoughts of the things we have done and said am I an idiot? I am an idiot do I love him or do I not? I don't know do I even know the real feeling of true love? I guess not or I would have this figured out I would have used this strong word more wisely And not have put him in the path of confusion confusion and heartbreak of me and my emotions that I obviously don’t even understand and I still have yet to even figure out who I am Should I break his heart now and tell him that I lied or should I stay with him and try to figure out this emotion I have toward him Do I love him like I said I do or do i love him like I love my best friend or my brother I have a lot of thinking to do about myself and about him