Confusion

Confusion sets in I swallow all hope, Cant figure it out how do I cope? Can I love? Do I truly care? Feeling so numb Yet they are there. What do I do? What do I say? Why even try? When it brings pain? Is it love? Or maybe lust? Maybe its real Or maybe its bust. I once loved her but yet growing cold. im tired of the fighting Im getting to old. I try to talk explain how i feel. She don't listen its no big deal. Some things are left Better alone. I would give up If I could know. How do you love When you only hate? She tries so hard But yet its all fake. I see through her Like crystal water. why even try? Why even bother? Or maybe its me Where the problem persist. I try but yet Im not ready for this. I don't know where it is going. Or at all where It will end.