Confused

A face in my heart, with a worrisome glee, a river in my heart, with exorbitant wave, cupid has got me wrong, this time,not with arrow and bow But with tong and fang my heart tilt and tilt, finding no convenient position. it's dark and cloudy in my head, my heart finds finding a way herculean, I've eaten from the golden apple of discord, Eris and Cupid battles on and on, in my heart, maybe i belong to one, But not the other, Maybe i belong to none, And it's just a child's play Can I love both, Love both at the same height? From my heart, I heard John Depp say, "If you love two people at the same time choose the second" My heart skipped on hearing these... But his second words were pain relief, He said........ "Because if you really loved the first, You wouldn't have fallen for the second" Is this infidelity? I'm so pained in this reality.